The Plan: Just Be
Sitting in the passenger’s seat of a racy red car, I glanced over at my driver. She looked exactly like me. We were flying down a dirt road in the middle of nowhere, top rolled back, wind whipping through our identical hair.
Without warning, directly in the near path, a huge chasm opened its hungry mouth.
My twin driver stepped hard on the brakes, the way I do when I’ve been going a little too fast and the light unexpectedly turns yellow.
In the brief suspension of time, I looked to the right and saw that our looming chasm didn’t stretch across the entire horizon. We could easily redirect our momentum onto a narrow road that went up and around the curve of the canyon. I couldn’t see where the little road led; it was hilly and winding. But it was much preferred over imminent destruction.
Instead, my driver did what I sometimes do when the light turns yellow: After her brief intermission on the brakes, she decided to try to “beat the light,” so to speak.
I woke up seconds before the nose of our convertible would smash into the bottom of the chasm.
The night before, I had put the finishing touches on an elaborate plan for a new project that I was sure was God’s specific calling for me.
I have never sensed God’s direction as clearly as I have in the past couple years. I’ve been anxious to race forward with what I thought God wanted.
It was confusing to keep getting that little “catch” feeling… you know, when you know something isn’t quite right. And I kept “accidentally” running across ominous quotes like:
“Beware of getting ahead of God by your very desire to do His will.”
– Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest
God doesn’t love to confuse people who want to follow Him. But He does love to surprise us. When I prayed for clarity the night before that dream, I was surprised by assurance that God was fully ready to answer.
I know what the winding road meant.
I’ve been ignoring tiny God-prompts… the puzzle pieces that don’t fit…
about taking things only one day at a time, like the Israelites when they gathered daily manna in the wilderness…
about writing things that are less comfortable than what makes sense in my head.
I can’t see ahead on the road. I don’t know where it leads.
I just know I need to keep following, one turn at a time.
Where I look is where I go.
What I see is what I reflect.
What I pour in is what pours out.
If character is more reliable than intention, I need to focus on becoming a certain type of person, rather than always planning to do certain types of things.
Instead of planning to be, I need to just be.
“The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.” (Proverbs 16:9 NASB)
“Give unto us this day the daily manna
without which he who labors most to move
ahead through this harsh wilderness falls back.”
“I am the living bread that came down from heaven.” (John 6:51)
“…narrow [is] the road that leads to life…” (Matthew 7:14)
“I am the way and the truth and the life.” (John 14:6)
“Remain in Me… apart from Me you can do nothing.” (John 15:4-5)