On My Mind Today

I was surrounded by young kids (all mine, of course) a couple days ago. They were climbing on me, crowding me, asking me repeated questions, with one request piling on another before I had a chance to respond even to the first one.

This wasn’t how I imagined parenting to be. Some days I’m a walking sermon on child spacing.

In the middle of this, my husband called. He was sitting in a call room at the hospital, all by himself, lost in an idyllic world of plans for a self-sustaining farming operation. (More on that in a future post… maybe.) We were going at two completely different paces.

So I snapped. I snapped at him for not answering my questions faster, and I snapped at the kids for continuing to beg me for things while I was on the phone.

This isn’t how things should be! My response has been nagging at me ever since.

This morning, I woke up with these thoughts rolling around in my head:

Do everything without complaining or arguing. Philippians 2:14

Take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. James 3:4-6

The tongue has the power of life and death. Proverbs 18:21

Life and death?!!!!

A sharp tongue is the only edged tool that grows keener with constant use.
Washington Irving

This quote, at least, makes me chuckle:

He missed an invaluable opportunity to hold his tongue.
Andrew Lang

I had a lot of other things on my mind when I snapped at my family. I wasn’t even upset with them, really, but they didn’t know that.

I hope today is a gentler day.

And I’m wondering: Would it be too schoolteacher-ish if I asked my own kids to raise their hands before they talk to me from now on?

Probably I won’t, but that idea was also rolling around in my mind this morning.




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2 Responses to “On My Mind Today”
  1. Krista says:

    Thanks so much for sharing this blog, Debbie….it was an encouragement to me. I’m losing it almost every day with my kids AND husband these days :o( and find myself on my knees asking them and my Father forgiveness….not exactly the kind of daily routine I want to stay in….but good reminder of how desperately I need Grace. Love you, Krista

    • Deborah.J says:

      It’s so hard when there are huge things weighing on us. And having your entire country in turmoil around you has to add just a little bit to the stress levels there! The “life and death” verse was what got me. I want my words to give life to my family, but that’s not always what happens.