Blood, Guts, Gore, and Brownies: Processing Grass-Fed Chickens

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My husband and I were up until 3am last Wednesday night, processing 32 massively oversized grass-fed chickens. Unfortunately, the chicks don’t hatch out of their shells, neatly plastic-wrapped in packages of white meat for me. This spring, our family has been redefining backyard chicken-keeping, by putting them in the front yard. I think it is the only relatively flat piece... Read More

The Plan: Just Be

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Sitting in the passenger’s seat of a racy red car, I glanced over at my driver. She looked exactly like me. We were flying down a dirt road in the middle of nowhere, top rolled back, wind whipping through our identical hair. Without warning, directly in the near path, a huge chasm opened its hungry mouth. My twin driver stepped hard on the brakes, the way I do when I’ve... Read More

Fluffy, et al. Settle into Farm Life

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I’ve posted before about my struggle to settle into farm life… …which must seem idyllic to some people, considering the number of families in our church who are moving to little acreages in the country recently. It’s just a lot of work, especially for a family with four very young children and a dad who works the equivalent of two other jobs. And it’s... Read More

Poem: To The God Who Can Feel

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I am so grateful for the spiritual “watchdogs” in our church. When I returned, after years of being out of church, they helped reground me in biblical beliefs, dispelling quite a bit of painful misunderstanding. But sometimes — in a dash back to my science writing days — I wish I could adjust their “sensitivity and specificity” a little! It is... Read More

Good Friday Comfort

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We’ve been preparing for Easter with fuzzy felted Etsy eggs. Soft comfort, on Good Friday, the anniversary of the most comfortless day ever. We pulled out the crown made of rose bush thorns from our garden and the cross of garage nails bound together with hair ribbon… …symbols of instruments for deliberately hurting someone… to death. There was no question... Read More

Pearls and Priests (and a Hoof Trimmer)

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I’m not proud of myself for this, but several weeks ago, if you had visited, you would have found me curled up on the sofa, throwing an impressive pity party for myself. I was afraid I had irritated a friend, exactly the type of thing that can color my entire world gloomy. Black confetti was raining down, and mentally I was poking pins into any upward-bound thought bubbles. This... Read More

Hebrew Word Study: What Does it Mean to Wait for the LORD?

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What does it mean to “wait for the LORD?” Does it mean sitting back and doing nothing? No one I know personally is waiting for insignificant things from God — I am not waiting for insignificant things from God! They are huge things with eternal significance: …for someone to leave a physically abusive relationship …for an infant to make it through one... Read More

Planting Raspberries, In Good Time

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For years, during the strain of all our moves, my husband and I talked about planting raspberries. It gradually morphed into a symbol of all our dreaming and planning to establish a place together someday. After we moved here, we kept putting off the raspberries — for nearly three years! But last week, it happened. He and I and the four kids dug into the dirt, burying raspberry... Read More

Redeeming Motherhood (When Every Day is April Fool’s Day)

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This. Right here. This random hanger, waving in the top of our weeping cherry at the front entry, like a banner of motherhood… This is one of many reasons parenting is the most humbling thing that has ever happened to me. I have no idea who put the hanger there. I have no idea how long it has been there. I am guessing one of the kids is responsible for it. The hanger is... Read More

Hebrew Word Study from Noah

Yesterday I posted about why God flooded the earth, because it’s a question that’s “out there” right now. Today I’m posting about the Hebrew words in the Noah story… for the sole reason that I am an irremediable Word Nerd, and if I suppress that too long, it erupts to the surface in a volcanic display, like you are about to see. In a few moments... Read More